In the end, it looks like it might turn out ok, but it has been a hard road. Getting cancer changed me forever, and I don't think all has been for the good. The Noonday Demons that I had been having some success keeping at bay through a myriad of soul-propping techniques and half-measures no longer will cut it in the face of your own mortality. It started, the diagnosis and the treatment, the beginning or the long spiral that hopefully has bottomed out in the here and now. I feel better, in personal and emotional terms, than I have in 20 years.
So, while my gas tank is empty because of a temporary sleep deficit at the moment, I am feeling pretty upbeat and positive. Had dinner with my family and a work colleague from overseas who is staying over the weekend. My darling 5 year old, told him "I have two testicles, but my Daddy only has one, how many do you have?"